Each and every time I step on the mat to train it comes down to one simple question. Do I want it more than I am afraid of it?
Today I will ask myself that question throughout the day. I will struggle with that question on my long commute home, and I will keep asking it again and again until I step back on the mat to train. Today I hope the answer is yes. I want it more than I am afraid of it!
Due to my "social anxiety disorder", on some days I find it really hard to convince myself to go to class, but I do want it more than I'm afraid of it, so I force myself to go. On days like that I think "Will I regret it if I go?" No, I only regret it if I don't.
ReplyDeleteI think you are right about that Gina. I know I would regret it more. I think we are two shy souls who found jiu jitsu and for me it makes me stronger and for a minute on the mats that shyness goes away and gets replaced with something powerful! :D
DeleteLove this Debra! I want to write. I have such a deep deep desire for my words to be out there. Fear, however fear of not being good enough scares the hell out of me. I've slowly pushing myself though and one day I'll get there.
ReplyDeleteI struggle with that myself Kasey. Many days I write stuff and never post it. I don't think it is good enough, or nobody wants to read my ramblings or what are people going to think about me. Our writing is a window into our private selves and it's hard to put it all out there for people to read and critique. Keep pushing forward one little tiny step at a time. I know you will get there. :D
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ReplyDeleteI just wanted to let you know that I've put one of your reviews up on a site I'm starting. If you have any others you'd like published, just let me know and I'll get them up. Thanks!
http://www.gifreak.com/gireviews?field_review_maker_uid=All&keys=&field_review_reviewer_tid=236
Thanks Megan. I'm waiting for a gi I won from DaFirma Kimono Company. I plan to review it once I get it and have a chance to wear it.
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