Power

The power of jiu jitsu to change people never ever ceases to amaze me.  I've seen people's lives changed in huge ways. It is a beautiful thing to behold.  For myself though, I'm struggling daily with my ability to change, to commit, to stay on track. I'm tired of letting my depression and anxiety control me. It's been a difficult year. A lot of things have taken a toll on my mind and body. I pray for the strength to keep walking this journey. The grace to give in and let it change me. I know there's something inside of me that is scared of success. I have to stop sabotaging myself. Where will this journey lead me?  I don't know. I'm scared. But you have to want it more than you are afraid of it.